Tzila and Ceres
Tzila and Ceres' relationship is complicated, and bordering nonexistent at times. Tzila has no want to form an attachment to Ceres (at least she doesn't think she does), and his persistence in wandering down into the canyon to find her is at times quite infuriating.
Tzila knew of Ceres long before he ever become aware of her. Before Ceres was an esk and he was following the Wanderer Majanthi around, he stumbled across the canyons that Tzila is bound to. Even before Ceres was made an esk, he could tell that the canyons were full of negative energy and lost things, but he was not able to perceive her. He could not see her, nor hear her, but he could feel something amiss, and for it he knew of the stories telling about a wandering, haunted spirit wandering the canyons were all true. Several times in Ceres' life before an esk he revised this place, wandering the floors and searching for the things that had become detached and lost in it's depths... hoping maybe some day he'd see this spirit that was so haunted, and maybe he could understand more.
Tzila recognized Ceres' every time he came, and she watched him from afar, forever unseen and sticking to the shadows no matter if she knew that he wouldn't be able to see her even if she were to stand right before him. She watched him as he went through, repeating things and thoughts of peace and healing in his head and doing his best to project these feelings onto the land and the items and bones trapped in the depths. Tzila had seen a few others in the following of Majanthi wander in here and attempt to dislodge the terrible energy, but none had ever come back after the first try- only Ceres.
At first he was a curiosity, one she watched from afar, and then eventually (and quite quickly) he became a nuisance. She did not care for his persistence or the frequency of his 'visits' that had him tramping all over her space- and she did her best to ward him him off and even scare him. She cast all her frustrations and negative energies at him and hoped he would go and never come back, but he always did. He was this annoying, insistent, constant thing that put her on edge and she hated it and sort of loved it all at once.... it was something at least, maybe not everything that came here, came to die.
Ceres stopped coming for quite a long time, and Tzila found herself missing watching that little ram and his chanting and his little habits. She had worked herself up into forgetting him and that he ever existed- but doing so made something all knotted and twisty crop up in her core, and she didn't understand it.
But when Ceres did finally return, he looked nothing like Tzila had last seen him... now he was lighter, his horns had become plants and fruit and needles poked up off his pelt as if they grew from him. He was now very different, and very much like her.
He wandered into the canyons like he always did, recanting his words and his thoughts, trying to steer the ill-will and unrest away from the land and bring something lighter- but this time he did it with more intensity, and more focus- as if he felt the world in a way he never had before. Now he sensed things he hadn't before, understood he depth of the unease he had felt in his former life- and he saw now what he never could.
He saw her
The first time it happened Tzila froze, rigid and fixed in place under the yellow stare of the now esk Ceres, and he held her in his gaze, calm as can be and thoughtful. There was a familiarity there for Ceres when he saw Tzila for the first time, and he instantly knew that she was that old, restless spirit he had spent so many days searching for in vain before now. The very thing he had returned now to seek out, and to try and do something about.
There was awhile where neither of them moved, or did a thing- until Ceres moved, and as soon as he did so Tzila skittered away and went to hide in some corner of the canyon's mazes where Ceres could not find her again. Tzila could not fathom being seen, and she had no idea what to do with it- so she ran. She did not show herself to Ceres the next few times he came around, she remained in the shadows and watched him from places where she was certain she would not be found. It took a very long time for Tzila to work up into letting herself be seen again, and much longer for her to allow Ceres to approach her at all.
Ceres comes back to Tzila time and time again, and the constant repeat visits that don't seem to go anywhere do not bother him. He just keeps trying, because Ceres cannot help himself, he's deeply rooted in a culture and teachings from the Wanderer Majanthi to try and heal the land and settle any spiritual feelings and energies of malcontent and unrest. He is keenly aware of Tzila's unease and her lingering rage, the energy she gives off is clear and strong on a good day. The whole canyon seems hampered down in despair and darkness, loneliness seeping from every corner and despair as constant as the wind blowing through the cracks- the canyon is a place where lost and forgotten things go to fade away, and where so many things end up to die. It's an unsettling place all on it's own that seems to attract negative energy like a sponge- but Tzila makes it all the worse with her constant brooding and simmering anger, and forever wandering through the canyons like one of those many lost souls that seem to always end up there.... only she's more prominent, and a lot harder to miss.
She's a very real haunt in the canyon and she does nothing to help it's natural dim and grim energy- and she's in pain, Ceres can tell. It's not physical no, but underneath the anger and the wrath and resentment Tzila harbors, there is a deep and terrible loneliness in her that weighs just as heavy as the all the sand in the deserts. He feels as if her anger from her past life is holding her back and holding on to all the negative is making her existence as an esk all the more unbearable- and he does have a point, but getting Tzila to listen to him and understand this is another thing entirely.
Ceres' soul absolutely aches for her on the days where her despair reaches an apex, and you can feel the depth of her pain and her anger bouncing off the canyon walls like echoes- these days her negative energy is absolutely stifling, and even Ceres' has a hard time treading through the canyon without feeling like he's walking on glass with every step. These days Tzila is the hardest to find, and Ceres can wander the canyon's the whole day and never find her.
Tzila is conflicted in her thoughts and feelings on Ceres. She knows that he is trying to get to her to try and change her and how she feels, but she's not entirely sure if she wants that at all- she can't let go of her own hatred and wrath so easily, and him trying to get her to let go does wear on her patience and her nerves to no end. Some days she really wishes he would go and never come back and others she tolerates him, and sometimes will sit at a fair distance and just watch him do his work, or tell a story. She wants him to leave her alone, and all at once she doesn't like how it feels when he is gone for long periods of time, or thinks about him possibly never returning.
He is both something she cannot stand, and something she cannot seem to be without. Ceres is the only social contact she has and the only thing she's even remotely willing to interact with in any way, big or small. Between the both of them, it's something of a long-game and a relationship in which they both need to tread with care (more so on Ceres' end, though Tzila treads lightly out of unease).
On particularly content days, Tzila and Ceres will spend an afternoon in the shade simply soaking in the sound of the wind, or Tzila will sit back and sit still as she listens to Ceres tell old tales or some stories of the places he's gone in the biome and the creatures he's met. Ceres encourages Tzila to relax and to try and let go of the baggage she is caring whenever he can, but he does it subtly so as not to overwhelm her... he is patient, and he will gladly keep trying for however long it takes, if it means helping her.
Ceres tries to get Tzila to try and wander from her Boundary, but she's wary of doing so and he won't push too hard. Tzila has some interest outside her boundary, mostly because of the stories and things that Ceres has told her over time, but she's scared of venturing out... perhaps eventually she'll go, with some prompting from Ceres and the smaller esk as a guide.
Tzila knew of Ceres long before he ever become aware of her. Before Ceres was an esk and he was following the Wanderer Majanthi around, he stumbled across the canyons that Tzila is bound to. Even before Ceres was made an esk, he could tell that the canyons were full of negative energy and lost things, but he was not able to perceive her. He could not see her, nor hear her, but he could feel something amiss, and for it he knew of the stories telling about a wandering, haunted spirit wandering the canyons were all true. Several times in Ceres' life before an esk he revised this place, wandering the floors and searching for the things that had become detached and lost in it's depths... hoping maybe some day he'd see this spirit that was so haunted, and maybe he could understand more.
Tzila recognized Ceres' every time he came, and she watched him from afar, forever unseen and sticking to the shadows no matter if she knew that he wouldn't be able to see her even if she were to stand right before him. She watched him as he went through, repeating things and thoughts of peace and healing in his head and doing his best to project these feelings onto the land and the items and bones trapped in the depths. Tzila had seen a few others in the following of Majanthi wander in here and attempt to dislodge the terrible energy, but none had ever come back after the first try- only Ceres.
At first he was a curiosity, one she watched from afar, and then eventually (and quite quickly) he became a nuisance. She did not care for his persistence or the frequency of his 'visits' that had him tramping all over her space- and she did her best to ward him him off and even scare him. She cast all her frustrations and negative energies at him and hoped he would go and never come back, but he always did. He was this annoying, insistent, constant thing that put her on edge and she hated it and sort of loved it all at once.... it was something at least, maybe not everything that came here, came to die.
Ceres stopped coming for quite a long time, and Tzila found herself missing watching that little ram and his chanting and his little habits. She had worked herself up into forgetting him and that he ever existed- but doing so made something all knotted and twisty crop up in her core, and she didn't understand it.
But when Ceres did finally return, he looked nothing like Tzila had last seen him... now he was lighter, his horns had become plants and fruit and needles poked up off his pelt as if they grew from him. He was now very different, and very much like her.
He wandered into the canyons like he always did, recanting his words and his thoughts, trying to steer the ill-will and unrest away from the land and bring something lighter- but this time he did it with more intensity, and more focus- as if he felt the world in a way he never had before. Now he sensed things he hadn't before, understood he depth of the unease he had felt in his former life- and he saw now what he never could.
He saw her
The first time it happened Tzila froze, rigid and fixed in place under the yellow stare of the now esk Ceres, and he held her in his gaze, calm as can be and thoughtful. There was a familiarity there for Ceres when he saw Tzila for the first time, and he instantly knew that she was that old, restless spirit he had spent so many days searching for in vain before now. The very thing he had returned now to seek out, and to try and do something about.
There was awhile where neither of them moved, or did a thing- until Ceres moved, and as soon as he did so Tzila skittered away and went to hide in some corner of the canyon's mazes where Ceres could not find her again. Tzila could not fathom being seen, and she had no idea what to do with it- so she ran. She did not show herself to Ceres the next few times he came around, she remained in the shadows and watched him from places where she was certain she would not be found. It took a very long time for Tzila to work up into letting herself be seen again, and much longer for her to allow Ceres to approach her at all.
Ceres comes back to Tzila time and time again, and the constant repeat visits that don't seem to go anywhere do not bother him. He just keeps trying, because Ceres cannot help himself, he's deeply rooted in a culture and teachings from the Wanderer Majanthi to try and heal the land and settle any spiritual feelings and energies of malcontent and unrest. He is keenly aware of Tzila's unease and her lingering rage, the energy she gives off is clear and strong on a good day. The whole canyon seems hampered down in despair and darkness, loneliness seeping from every corner and despair as constant as the wind blowing through the cracks- the canyon is a place where lost and forgotten things go to fade away, and where so many things end up to die. It's an unsettling place all on it's own that seems to attract negative energy like a sponge- but Tzila makes it all the worse with her constant brooding and simmering anger, and forever wandering through the canyons like one of those many lost souls that seem to always end up there.... only she's more prominent, and a lot harder to miss.
She's a very real haunt in the canyon and she does nothing to help it's natural dim and grim energy- and she's in pain, Ceres can tell. It's not physical no, but underneath the anger and the wrath and resentment Tzila harbors, there is a deep and terrible loneliness in her that weighs just as heavy as the all the sand in the deserts. He feels as if her anger from her past life is holding her back and holding on to all the negative is making her existence as an esk all the more unbearable- and he does have a point, but getting Tzila to listen to him and understand this is another thing entirely.
Ceres' soul absolutely aches for her on the days where her despair reaches an apex, and you can feel the depth of her pain and her anger bouncing off the canyon walls like echoes- these days her negative energy is absolutely stifling, and even Ceres' has a hard time treading through the canyon without feeling like he's walking on glass with every step. These days Tzila is the hardest to find, and Ceres can wander the canyon's the whole day and never find her.
Tzila is conflicted in her thoughts and feelings on Ceres. She knows that he is trying to get to her to try and change her and how she feels, but she's not entirely sure if she wants that at all- she can't let go of her own hatred and wrath so easily, and him trying to get her to let go does wear on her patience and her nerves to no end. Some days she really wishes he would go and never come back and others she tolerates him, and sometimes will sit at a fair distance and just watch him do his work, or tell a story. She wants him to leave her alone, and all at once she doesn't like how it feels when he is gone for long periods of time, or thinks about him possibly never returning.
He is both something she cannot stand, and something she cannot seem to be without. Ceres is the only social contact she has and the only thing she's even remotely willing to interact with in any way, big or small. Between the both of them, it's something of a long-game and a relationship in which they both need to tread with care (more so on Ceres' end, though Tzila treads lightly out of unease).
On particularly content days, Tzila and Ceres will spend an afternoon in the shade simply soaking in the sound of the wind, or Tzila will sit back and sit still as she listens to Ceres tell old tales or some stories of the places he's gone in the biome and the creatures he's met. Ceres encourages Tzila to relax and to try and let go of the baggage she is caring whenever he can, but he does it subtly so as not to overwhelm her... he is patient, and he will gladly keep trying for however long it takes, if it means helping her.
Ceres tries to get Tzila to try and wander from her Boundary, but she's wary of doing so and he won't push too hard. Tzila has some interest outside her boundary, mostly because of the stories and things that Ceres has told her over time, but she's scared of venturing out... perhaps eventually she'll go, with some prompting from Ceres and the smaller esk as a guide.